Sometimes in order to fit into people's world is to bring your own kind of offering. Truly that everything in this world costs something. I have seen a lot of circles, and I realized that bond is really seasonal for those who doesn't want to keep you for good. Especially if for them, you are just the plain part of their life. In order for you to mark them you should bring your own reason why you should be chosen. I was like that back then. I am the one who always push myself because I see colors to where the people I really love stays. I never experience to be held just because they don't want to lose me. All I gained was just a simple tap, a whisper from them that seemed like saying 'we are here but we can hardly feel your presence.'
There are thousands of groups but I never had a chance to sit with them for so long. And that's okay, I learned better now. That discomfort is a part of growing.

If they don't want to be friends with u, be friend with your self.