the problem with you is you’re so softhearted. you get attached so fast. you easily forgive people who ruin your peace of mind. you forgave people so easily, most of the time you’re the first person who feel bad and feel guilty if you ignore someone even they deserve that for hurting you. i’m not saying that forgiving is bad but you're so ironic that you forgave others but once you commiting mistake, you can't forgive yourself so fast. you were young that time, naive and still growing. i hope someday you will stop blaming yourself because u also deserve to change without feeling bad for what you’ve done before. you should've learn to ignore those people who makes you feel unworthy. you are so kind that's why they'll keep hurting, abusing, leaving and replacing you.